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I can’t believe I stayed up all night. I’m insane! It’s about 6 in the morning and my alarm is set to go off at any minute. Yikes! I should have went to sleep last night. I’m really going to regret staying up all night as the day goes on. It’s funny because I wasn’t really tired until I looked at the clock and realized I couldn’t go to sleep even if I wanted to. I’m expecting to be tired and miserable all day. Hopefully I’ll be able to get a nap in late this afternoon. I have to get at least 4 hours of work done and then I can sleep! I figure I should be able to last until lunch time.

I wish I liked coffee. I could really use some caffeine right about now. I wonder if tea has enough caffeine to keep me awake. I need something strong. I hope I can get my work done without making too many mistakes. My job requires a lot on concentration and there is little room for errors. I should have thought about that last night! I always think about things after the fact. Too bad I don’t have a twin to stand in for me today. Or maybe even a cardboard display. Anything that will give me a chance to catch some shut-eye when no one is looking. LOL!

I took a few pictures earlier and boy were they disappointing! It’s weird how you can think you look one way, but when you see a picture you look completely different. I know they say the camera adds a few pounds, but geez. My camera not only adds pounds, it adds flaws too. I’m staying away from that camera for a while. I was feeling pretty good about myself until I uploaded the pictures. Horrible. Seeing these pictures will definitely be my motivation to get back on my diet. I need to lose 20 pounds fast. Maybe even more. Man, I wish I never took this pictures!

I knew I gained weight because the dress that I had on today was a lot shorter and tighter than I remember it being. That should have been my first sign that there was a problem. Grrr. Soon I’m going to have to buy a whole new wardrobe. Maybe I should just start wearing breeches to hind my curves. No jeans for me! As of this second, my diet is back ON!

I feel really miserable right now. I have the worst upset stomach. It feels like I ate something sour. I didn’t, but that’s what it feels like. It feels as if my stomach is burning. I can’t really describe it. I don’t know what’s making me feel this way. I ate a few things yesterday, so I’m not sure what’s the culprit. Ugh!!! I really wish I didn’t have to work this morning. I didn’t get any sleep. I just know I’m going to have a long, miserable day.

I should have gotten some seltzer water for my stomach as soon as I started feeling the pain. Now it’s too late. This is all my fault. If I wasn’t always cheating on my diet I wouldn’t be sick right now. It’s tough being a fatty. I need to get a hold of the best appetite suppressants and the best diet pills immediately! I’ve never taken diet pills before but I’m willing to try just about anything right now. I need to get my weight under control!